babbling

Okay, so last night I was in one of the worst moods EVERRR. That's probably a bit of an exaggeration, but I really wasn't feeling great. So I had an early night.. Probably the earliest I've had since long before summer.

However, the one thing that had managed to cheer me up for a bit was being with the youth at my church. It's crazy to see how it's grown since I was in it. From going from a few girls, to there being a mixture of both now. We had a minor mishap in that we didn't have irn bru.. But don't worry! I drove to the store and got some! We were talking to the kids about how we are the church. We asked them what they thought the church was, and gave them five cocktail sticks and some blutak to make a sculpture of what their idea was. Most of the kids got it! Making a sculpture of a person.

The youth fellowship within our church has changed so much over the six years I was in it.   Through the different seasons of my life, I appreciated some bits more than others. But now, realising I want to work with youth, I see that at every point, the leaders just wanted to show us God. And now it's my turn to help the youth see him too. If nothing else comes up, I plan to come home from school and work with the kids as much as I can.

I'm especially looking forward to going on outreach with capernwray. Will be weird having other students go to my church however.. But it'll be great. And I hope everyone at my church will be blessed with who they get. And I hope the same for wherever I end up! I miss out team from last year, they were a great bunch!








I'm currently preparing to go to Bible School at Capernwray Hall in Carnforth, England. I've grown up going there. Since I was a tiny little baby. I've always kid myself on to think as soon as I go home, I'll be this great christian teenager, not afraid of being who I am.. Yeah, I think the maximum it lasted for was a couple weeks? The change this year was I went already filled with God, excited about learning more. Something that really touched me, was someone commenting on the change. It encouraged me even more hearing that people could notice something. It reminds me of the song by Amy Grant I have decided. My favourite line in it is;
"And when the world begins to see you change,
Don't expect them to applaud.
Just keep your eyes on Him and tell yourself,
I've become the work of God."

Although the people who had noticed the change in me were also christians, there will be people who notice it who aren't. And the devil can use these people to really get to me, but all I need to remember is to keep my eyes on the Lord, and I'll be fine.

Another thing literally just occurred to me two seconds ago. There can be really big things God can do, that make us realise just how good he is. How rewarding he can be. But there can also be the smaller things. Whilst in America, it was amazing meeting Keith Getty and Amy Grant, all in the same night. When I was at capernwray, an old friend, Rory Malone - an up and coming christian singer/songwriter - showed up. I had no idea he would be coming. But he just appeared. We had a real long chat about how our lives were turning out. We'd both been aware of the struggles we both had over the years, but could see in one another the changes. I believe God brought him there that day to give me a heads up, that he was doing a good work in me. Having someone like Rory around made me realise the change for myself.

I realise I've been talking loads about God, and some people will be sitting going, where's Sarah? Cause that certainly isn't her. But, heyho, it is me, still Sarah Elizabeth Ross! Only, without the messes I get myself in to, sober or drunk! I'm so glad I'm getting through that season of my life, and moving on to a much bigger and much more exciting one!

Right now I'm reading a couple of books. One is a novel, with a series of other books that go along with it by Karen Kingsbury. I am honestly hooked to these book, they are great! CHECK THEM OUT! But aswell as them, I am also reading a couple others. One called WRating your dating while waiting for matingW and the other "I kissed dating goodbye"
Okay, so I've got into the first chapters of both.. So not entirely sure what to expect. But reading one of them came from getting it from one of my close friends and youth workers, Suzanne. The other, I was given, because I'd mentioned in the creche at church yesterday that I was sick of going out looking for a boyfriend. it took me far too long to realise that it didn't work that way. Before any kind of relationship more than a good friend is gonna work, I need to be right with God, and have an up and close personal relationship with him. The other thing I'd mentioned was, what was the point in being in a relationship at this age, if you weren't considering marriage? What's the point in handing over your heart to someone who's just in it for the short run. As soon as they get tired, they'll move on. So from now on, I'm leaving it to the big man. When he decides it's the right time for me, then maybe, just maybe, I'll find a guy. For now - ALL GUYS ARE JERKS - mostly. Appart from the ones that aren't. They are nice. I cherish the friendships I have with some of my guy friends.

ANYWAY. I have babbled my whole way through this one today. And probably haven't made one bit of sense. BUT HEY?! WHO CARES! For all my christian friends reading this! Just pray that I'll know when the time is right, if there ever comes a time. And that, I'll have the power to keep on how I am going, and not give in to the daily temptations facing me! CHEEEEEYURZ.



Ps. Shout out to my lil sister and best friend Kezia! Love you! x